Lovelies

Trials are finally over! woot! but SPM’s like in mere weeks. so.. blah!

ANYWAY! Went for buka with aisyah last night. Her last night in Kuala Lumpur ): sobsob!

But one awesome thing is, I’m staying with my cousin in Manchester for a month after SPM, so I’ll be able to see both Aisyah and Yasmin (:

So after buka, sent Aisyah home and went to Hussain’s for mercun.

the chick on my right was the kepala of everything!

them big juicy doubles

pamela’s is nothing compared to these.. at least they’re real!

the ra ras.. nadira and zahira!

zuri and i with our bunga apis..

joyride! sending the girls home and suzy’s supper with ira!

all in all, twas a fun night! thanks. you sbu kids rock my

cempaka ass!

I just don’t get some people. How they can be completely oblivious about bout everything.

I’m talking about people who prefer to fool around and date non-stop instead of just choosing one person to be with. I mean, I know a handful of people who recklessly go up to random strangers and have brief flings. Short, insignificant flings. That normally don’t last past the month.

Me, I like being with that one special person. I’ll only be in a relationship with someone I love, or at least have strong feelings for. You know what I mean? I love the idea of being committed only to one person. Being with someone who makes me happy. Someone I can spoil. I love relationships.

I love, love. <3

But I guess, in a way, those people I mentioned earlier are smarter than me. They knew what I didn’t, till now. They knew that by avoiding serious relationships, they’d be avoiding heartbreaks. Avoiding the late nights of tears that flow over that someone who’s broken their hearts. They have a sort of security. A bantal busuk for relationships, if you will.

But I know that now.

Yet I still find myself wanting my past. Wanting to be with the person I love. Am I crazy or what? Maybe it’s just loneliness. Maybe..

the end

the thing is, i get that life’s a bitch. You gain friends and you lose some. But to be completely frank, I never thought that I’d be saying goodbye to you. And the fact that you said “byebye!” just like that just made me realize that maybe I was wasting my time.

But i salute you. Honestly. Manage to make me believe that you were actually worth everything I’ve ever done for you. All I can say is, wow. Seriously. WOW.

The sad part is, you’ll never ever know how this feels like. How it’s like to have someone you really care about just treat you like shit. Make you feel like you don’t even matter. Why? It’s cause you’re so FUCKING BATU about everything.

But whatever lah. I mean, you go your way, and I’ll go mine.

ducky, out.