I just don’t get some people. How they can be completely oblivious about bout everything.

I’m talking about people who prefer to fool around and date non-stop instead of just choosing one person to be with. I mean, I know a handful of people who recklessly go up to random strangers and have brief flings. Short, insignificant flings. That normally don’t last past the month.

Me, I like being with that one special person. I’ll only be in a relationship with someone I love, or at least have strong feelings for. You know what I mean? I love the idea of being committed only to one person. Being with someone who makes me happy. Someone I can spoil. I love relationships.

I love, love. <3

But I guess, in a way, those people I mentioned earlier are smarter than me. They knew what I didn’t, till now. They knew that by avoiding serious relationships, they’d be avoiding heartbreaks. Avoiding the late nights of tears that flow over that someone who’s broken their hearts. They have a sort of security. A bantal busuk for relationships, if you will.

But I know that now.

Yet I still find myself wanting my past. Wanting to be with the person I love. Am I crazy or what? Maybe it’s just loneliness. Maybe..